Sunday, October 25, 2009

Back To Work

I've been back at work for one week now. It's Sunday night and I have to be at work at 7:15 in the morning. For my 2nd week of work.

I'm exhausted......

Between working 10 hours a day, normal housework, getting ready for Halloween, helping to take care of teens that for some reason their parents decided to kick them out of the house for a night or a week or however long (Who can do that anyways?????), I've been busssssssyyy.

I buckled and told Emma she could have her first Halloween party next Saturday. She's invited 10 girls. And so far they are all able to come. What in the hell did I OK!!?!?!? Ronnie said he'll be disappearing that night and we didn't question him. We know where he will be and I'm sure Emma and all of her friends will be happier without the 16 year old here with his friends. I can imagine the fights that would happen.

We took Harley to a classmate's birthday party last night. It was his first "party" and he was excited and nervous and kept asking how he should be. What kind of 5 year old worries about "how he should be"? He was too cute. It was at a skating rink and he tried skating but decided it wasn't for him yet. The rink had these scooter type things but you knelt on them instead of standing on them and he had a blast riding that around. He was having so much fun with his friends that they didn't eat the dinner that was provided and didn't want to stop long enough to enjoy cake and ice cream. And then on the way home he cried because he didn't get any pizza or cake or ice cream. When we got home he put his PJ's on and I fed him left over Mac&Cheese and a bowl of cereal and he was happy.

I had my last check up with my doctor last Wednesday. She finally told me that all the tests came back normal except one. I had Adenomyosis. I guess that's how it's spelled. I can't remember. It's the opposite of Endometriosis. The muscles of my utuerus was growing on the inside and causing all the problems I'd been having. My doctor told me she was glad I was persistent to have the surgery because that is the only thing that cures what I had and unfortunately the only way to know you have it is if you have a hysterectomy. The other procedure she wanted me to have wouldn't have worked and all the crap I'd been dealing with would have been back in a month or so. I've lost 7 pounds since my surgery. That's only 7 pounds in 7 1/2 weeks but hey, it's better than nothing at all or gaining weight. I can start working out again so we shall see if I can up that number!

Guess I should get to bed and get a little rest before my 2nd week of work starts.

Hope everyone has a good week!

Monday, October 12, 2009

5th Week

5th Week means I only have one more week left of leave. I really don't want to go back to work but I must.
The younger kids are sad that I'm going back to work but then I remind them they love my paycheck that comes with that work. I do too, especially when it comes time to pay bills.
This is depressing to think I go back so soon. And 5 friends were laid off and their last day was today. I am sad for them and will miss them when I do go back. I am going to eat some chocolate and go to bed now.

Monday, September 28, 2009

3rd Week

I keep forgetting it's only the 3rd week, tomorrow actually, that I've been home because of surgery. I feel so good and start going at my normal pace and then regret it because I end up pulling a stomach muscle or get so tired I sleep most of the next day.
Today for instance, it's 10:15 and I've been up since 6am, fed 4 kids breakfast, got them all off to school, did breakfast dishes, and on the 3rd load of laundry. To some this might not seem like a lot. For me, it's ALOT!!! I am a big procrastinator and was always too tired before to do all of this before school got out. I'm just wondering what it's going to be like when I go back to work. Will I keep my new found energy or will I be drained all the time again because that's the way work is anymore. Draining.
I've almost become domesticated. I am cleaning more, even though I'm not allowed to do housework yet, I am cooking more, baking more, I love being home to help kids with homework, get afternoon snacks ready on nights when dinner will be late because Emma or Ronnie have volleyball or cheer practice.
What has become of me!?!?!?!?!?!

Maybe having my "big guts ripped out" has brought out the Adult in me. That's kinda scary!

And the dryer keeps buzzing at me so I need to go fold some towels.

Hope everyone has a good week.

Friday, September 18, 2009

And once again I have waited so long between postings. So so much has changed since April.
Ethan moved back home during the summer. He spent his time with his dad shut up in his room doing what he wanted. His dad never made him go do anything other than school. Apparently he was bullied alot at school up there too but no one ever did anything about that. They knew about it but never took it to the school or dealt with it. We are now trying to undo some of the habits Ethan developed. Making him leave his room is finally easier. He is starting to enjoy family activities again. He is doing well in school and has a couple of friends.
Emma is in volleyball this year and her grades are suffering. It's not just volleyball but her age. She is more interested in how she looks than her grades right now. Most of her friends are that way.
Ronnie is a cheerleader now and his grades are just fine. His attitude is starting to suck and not sure why. I think he is trying to be involved in too much and always asking for money and upset that we don't hand over money all the time. He signed up for cheer without talking it over. It is expensive to be a cheerleader!!! Scott finally told him we will pay for half of cheer and he will need to find a way to pay for the rest. Ronnie is upset about that now too! He applied for a job online, or so he says, his last job he had we found out he just quit showing up. Ronnie told us they let him go because they had too many workers. Ronnie needs to learn that we know too many people in this town and we will find out the truth about anything.
Harley started Kindergarten already! I can't believe he is 5. He should still be a baby! He is too smart for his own good right now. He asked for a baby brother a few months ago and I explained that I can't have babies anymore. He decided Emma could go get the sex and have a brother for him. I was shocked and horrified and amused all at the same time. Where would a 5 year old come up with that??? He's also figured out that it is extremely easy to pick on Ethan because of his disability. Scott and I were laying in bed the other night and Harley climbed in bed with us and napped for a while. He all of a sudden jumped up and ran into the room he shares with Ethan and said "Ethan, Mom is dead, she died", and walked away. Ethan immediately started crying and screaming and it took the longest time to calm him down even when I was in the room with him and hugging him. Ethan was calm and doing ok, ready for bed when Harley runs through the room and says Ha Ha I fooled you and runs out again. I couldn't believe Harley pulled that! We have talked and talked with Harley about how not to act around Ethan and what he should or shouldn't say. Think it might take a while for that to sink in though.

Scott has a new job and it is so much better. He is home by 6pm every night and has every Sunday off. It was a big ordeal when he was switching jobs, he made a big deal that he didn't want a new job and was happy where he was at. He wasn't happy and neither was I. We almost split up again over this job. I finally asked him why he applied for a new job if he felt he was fine at the new one. He kept saying it was my fault and I was forcing him to do it. After the first week at the new job he was convinced it was the best move he'd made. He's been there almost 3 months now and he's the assistant manager already.

I'm on short term disability leave right now. I had my regular checkup with "that" doctor in August. With all the problems I've told her I've been having and the way "things" looked when she did the exam I ended up having an ultrasound. Seven gumball sized tumors were found on my cervix and uteurus. My ovaries tested fine. September 8th I had a hysterectomy. It's been almost 2 weeks and I'm feeling pretty good. No complications thank goodness and I'm healing well. I've had a few people say I took the extreme route but with my family history I wasn't willing to chance anything. It's not like I don't have any kids. I'm done having kids. I love my kids and feel if I'm meant to have more it will be through adoption. When Scott heard what the results were he was all for it as well. I'm sure for different reasons. No more PMS, no more cravings, no more 15 days of bleeding. Yes I had a 15 day period most months. I used to have constant lower back pain. Since the surgery I've had no lower back pain. It's been wonderful!!
I can go back to work in 4 more weeks and so far am in no hurry. By the middle of next week I will probably be going stir crazy though.
Time to go, Ethan and Harley are fighting again, today was parent-teacher conferences so they were home with me all day and are tired of each other. At least that's what it sounds like

Everyone have a great weekend

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Happy Hump Day

Wow didn't realize it has been 2 months since I posted anything. And boringly enough not much has changed. Ok, probably not really but thats what it feels like.
Lets see, Emma has an A in math which is unheard of for her. All of her grades are excellent right now. Yea for her, I'm so proud of her. I will admit I thought she might have been cheating but I watched her do some homework and she really gets it now. Double yea for her.
Ronnie just finished driver's ed and is getting his permit on Friday. Scares the crap out of me thinking about him driving. He is in the gifted program at school now and has already picked the college he wants to go to and already has the paperwork for scholarships and loans. He is a Sophomore. He is on the ball.
Harley has just 7 days of preschool. I am so glad we have one less bill to pay now. Bad way to look at it I know but I am glad for one less bill. He is registered for Kindergarten and is having a hard time waiting for August so he can start big school and ride the bus every day.

And we are on another count down to vacation. 17 days and we go to Disney. Again. We are taking Ronnie, Emma, and Harley this time. I am actually excited. Harley is tall enough for all of the rides and he is so excited to go. He could care less about meeting Mickey Mouse, he just wants to ride the rollercoasters.
We are going for Scott's birthday, he will be 45 this year and wants to ride the day away. Plus he gets in free for his birthday.

I am working way too much and not getting enough sleep lately. My office is an exciting place right now because we are upgrading the services we provide and the next 7 months will be even busier than we are right now. Lots of overtime in the near future.

Other than life not much is going on right now.

Hope everyone has a good rest of the week

Sunday, February 22, 2009

It's been almost a month since my surgery and I feel so much better. I went against doctors orders and went back to bed to sleep just a week and a half after my surgery. I couldn't sleep in the recliner anymore and my butt was going to sleep.
Harley turned 5 years old February 17th and we are having his birthday party tonight. I have the brisket soaking in it's rub in the fridge for another hour or so and have the birthday cake cooling, ready to decorate. Harley requested a spider cake. His favorite movie at the moment is 8 Legged Freaks. Being the non-creative person I am, I have elected to try to make him a spider birthday cake. I am crazy I know. I love to bake but when it comes to decorating anything, I SUCK!!!!
Nana and Grandpa, Scott's parents, got Harley a blue 4-wheeler, just his size, and it stays at their house for him to enjoy when he spends the night with them. Plus they live in the country and have lots more room for him to ride around.
What else has happened in the past month.... Emma's grades are slowly rising. Having Ronnie here is wonderful for her, whether she thinks so or not. Ronnie is an honor student and Emma feels like she needs to keep her grades up to compete with him. Ronnie is in a class called Mock Trial. Basically what it sounds like, the kids are given cases to try and there is the defense and prosecution. The class went to a competition this weekend and when he got home today Ronnie said they lost just one case out of 5. Emma has all B's right now, which is excellent. She went from one B and C's and D's to straight B's. I am proud of her. Ronnie has 6 A's and 1 B, which is 1 point from an A. He is 10th in his class and is working hard to get closer to number 1. He wants to be Valedictorian of his class when he graduates in 2 1/2 years. Only 2 1/2 years. Time flies when you are busy!
Things are changing at my job and I really don't like the direction they are going. I have decided to get into the nursing program our college has next semester. It's time for a change that will lead to a career for me. I thought I had good opportunities for advancement where I am but I am finding that I thought wrong. I think I would make a great nurse, I am not squeamish at all and can hardly wait to start that. It will be hard, working full time and then taking night classes but I can do it. Just a matter of waiting for the next semester.
Scott's diabetes is now under control. Which I am very glad for.

March 1st is our 6th Anniversary. We are once again headed to Las Vegas for the NASCAR race. Last year our trip was pretty lousy. Scott had pneumonia and was miserable. We didn't do anything while we were there and only spent 2 hours at the race. We are hoping this year will be much better. We have plans to spend lots of time in the room :) um, cuddling, yeah right, lots of romping in the bed, and then spend Sunday at the race track. I am ready for it! We have had little time for just the 2 of us the past few weeks, what with surgery and ER visits! Scott's dad has said he wants to spend lots of time with us and Scott keeps saying not this year dad, nmaybe next year. Dad and his friends are staying in the same hotel as us so keeping our room a secret isn't going to happen.

And I finally had to buy a new dryer. Our old one was at least 20 years old and it finally crapped out. It gave a loud clunk and a puff of smoke and then the hot air was gone. We decided to just buy a new one instead of trying to fix the old one for the 20th time. I love my new dryer. It has the energy efficient cycle and dries the clothes in half the time as the old one! Laundry time is now cut in half!!

Cakes are done baking now and I think I am going to nap with Harley while they cool enough for me to decorate them.

Hope you all have a great week!

Monday, February 02, 2009

Pain & Suffering

January was such a busy month. In and out of doctor offices and the ER. Scott broke out in hives the first week of January. They became so bad he got to the point where he could barely breath. So off to the ER at 2am because he wouldn't let me take him to the immediate care center we have just down the road at 7pm. Then 2 nights later he was so out of it and wacky acting that we went back to the ER after checking his blood sugars. He is a diabetic and his meter just read HI. We found out that prednisone messes with anyones blood sugars and this is especially dangerous for a diabetic. Docs finally got that under control and home we went.

I finally complained about the number of headaches and what I thought were sinus infections I've been having so my doctor sent me to an ENT, ear nose & throat doctor. Had a CT scan done of my sinuses and found that my sinuses are "pristine and a perfect textbook example for a class". The ENT said my headaches are vascular migraines, caused by my deviated septum. Apparently the broken part was pressing on my blood vessels and eye socket & causing the pain. SOoooo, I had surgery this past Thursday and had that repaired. My boss got a kick out of telling people I was going to get Marilyn Monroe's nose. I had to convince quite a few people that I wasn't getting a nose job, I was having my nose fixed. There is actually a big difference.

While he was performing the surgery he found some damaged cartilage and bone spurs and the doctor said he removed it all. Scott said the way the doctor described the bone spurs was almost like I had horns growing inside my head. And now my husband is telling people he always knew I was a horny little devil. :)

So, I am at home recovering. Takes 4-6 weeks to recover from this fully from what I understand. I'm not even a week in. But the headaches and pain I have now are no where near the headaches I was having. The pain I have now is in my upper lip and the tip of my nose. I can only open my mouth so far and its so much fun eating right now. Lots of crackers and soup so far.

This is the first time I have felt like looking at a computer in almost a week. And my eyes are already tired and Harley is begging me to put a movie in his DVD player. Horrible as it is, I am going to let him watch a movie right now. He spent all day at preschool and I haven't seen him all day but my head always hurts worse this time of day for some reason. I am going to nap in my chair, can't lay down for 2 more weeks, while he watches a movie and Emma pouts in her room. Who knows why she is pouting. She's almost a teenager and the mood swings are upon us!