Thursday, August 09, 2012

Almost school time

School starts for the kids in a few days. School starts for me in a week and a half. So very excited! But at the same time I am hurt, angry, and sad. My husband admitted to cheating on me last night. With someone who I thought was a friend. Our kids play together, we have bbques together. Her husband knows and is apparently ok with it, found out they are swingers. I am not ok with it and not sure what to do or say right now. In fact our kids were supposed to play today and she doesn't bother to show or call or text even. She finally answers my texts and said oh sorry, her son just woke up. I know he never sleeps past 8am. He might have slept in today but I also think she is just avoiding me. I want to beat the crap out of both of them and make them hurt like I do. I never thought my husband would do this. I don't know why. Both of our exes cheated on us so he knows how absolutely shitty this feels. It's been so hard to be nice around my kids today and don't know how I've managed to. I know I've been very sarcastic today. I think it's time to take some anger and hurt out on cleaning my house.